So now, I realised after last night, where I stayed sober in a nightclub. Ive lost so much of what I had. I got some back when I just didn't give a fuck about what people thought when I tried desperately to talk to Catherine.

But last night I was watching a girl on the dancfloor, about 23, she was brunette, short and knew she was hot. I wanted to go out and try a dance with her. But I didn't, I didn't want to come across as a creep. I don't want girls to think I'm one of those perves looking for a cheap fuck in the clubs. And I wont be able to brush that off if I I get that kind of reaction. I knew that if I had 4 or 5 drinks in me Id of gone up and tried a dance with her. But a year ago Id have done it sober..

Also this guy was trying a fight with me, and I was all set to deck him outside, but I just didn't even bother looking for him afterwards, which annoyed me. I didn't want to fight, I was almost...afraid.

So how do I go back to the way I was? How do I just lose the fear of coming across as a creep and go back to thinking these girls WANT me to dance with them and chat them up?

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Punctured bicycle on a hillside, desolate,
Could nature make a man of me yet?

or you have different priorities than you did back then

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just don't let me down...

I'm glad to hear you didn't drink as that is a good thing! You need confidence again with the girls and is has to be the real kind, not that from the bottom of a bottle. Slowly building it up will take time however I'm sure that you can do it because like I've said to you before you have a natural charm so you shouldn't think you are acting like a creep.

Building up confidence again with the girls is just taking a risk and a chance to talk to them. Also if you aren't drunk or tipsy they might be able to tell that what you are doing isn't a creepish act. It shows you have taken your own courage *not dutch courage* to approach them, which will mean you are valued more.

Also the thing about fighting that is good however you shouldn't be afraid as you know you can stand your own ground IF and i mean IF you need to. Don't go looking for fights it only causes yourself more trouble then it's worth.

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Dreaming Of A Day Where Things Are Different!
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