i think it's because i'm getting "too excited" for college this fall.  i feel like my life will have a complete turn around as soon as i set foot on campus... which, in turn, makes me all the more anxious to get there and all the more depressed that i'm sitting at home waiting.

i know things will be different.  i can finally be open about my sexuality, maybe even meet somebody.  and that's all that's missing from my life right now.

but more and more each day lately, i'm thinking that nothing will change.  that college will be too much like high school, despite the 10,000 students versus my old high school of 130.

i just don't know.  i'm having doubts about other shit too, like if i'll be able to make friends or not.

i just want somebody with experience in this area to tell me that it will be better.  that i will make friends and get a boyfriend and bask in "the greatest years of my life"

because right now, my positive outlook is fading.

If you have any more questions just pm me I'll more than glad to answer.

Post edited at 9:29 pm on July 1, 2008 by starrynight401

at my college they have a GBLT club and its awesome. If your gay at my school your cool.

and actually even if its not like that at the school you will be attending...Im sure there will be a club you could be part of, you will meet more ppl like yourself and all good things will come true!!!

be happy. patience will pay off trust me