What is it?

             My arm.
...
Again?

             Yes, again.

Where is it?

             Here. It isn't deep.

Alright, well, let's get this cleaned.

             Thank you.

I thought you'd moved on?

             No.

Sweetheart, why didn't you tell me?

             Should I have?

Of course. I'm here to help you.

             Right. I'm sorry.

Would you like to talk about it?

             If you would.

Well, I'm open for discussion. Go on then.

             I still miss her.

Yes. We all do.

             Yes.

Don't move.

             I won't.

And the dreams?

             They aren't dreams.

Hm. We could always go back to the doctor if they bother you.

             No. They don't bother me.

You're sure?

             I'm sure.

Well alright then. If you change your mind...

             I won't.

Just try not to hurt yourself anymore. It really is quite frightening.

             I'm sorry. I'll try.

Alright well, off you go now. I'm very busy.

             Yes. Good day.

Good day.

I miss her. Every day I do. And the others do as well; I feel it every time I see them. But they never ask her back. I see her every night. She can't hear me. I try to follow her, but I trip. I can't reach her. Why don't they talk to her? The red water that came out of her head. It's the same red water that's come out of my arm every morning. But I don't leave. I hope she comes back soon. I miss her.

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Sexual innuendo.

I loved you and you loved me, where did we go wrong? Time at first passed quickly, being drunk with joy and happiness being in love. After so long being alone and pondering to give up completely on the chance of true happiness. Leaving the past behind me i dove blindly into the comfort of your arms. Little to know you still clung to previous events and my dark past with a death grip. Jealousy and rage do horrible things to a person. My love for you burned bright while yours for me dimmed with each passing day. Others around you assisted in your inner hatred. Turning my once bright lover into a hurtful non-caring monster. Knowing I would never leave your side, i became your emotional punching bag. I took the rage and hateful words for others actions. Instead of holding me close you pushed me away leaving me feeling my past would never let me be, my lonliness to be eternal, constent, and never ending. Covering your emotions and drowning your gentle nature with temporary escapes, alcohol and drugs. It seemed to me you were drowning in everything. Constantly i reached out to you, hoping to be a beacon of light in your storm of despair. The more i attempted to save you the more distant you became. Eventually your words once loving and comforting, hurt worse than physical abuse. You broke what self-esteem you had given me with hurtful words leaving me crippled and feeling worthless, disposable. Desperate i continued to try and amend things. Taking your rude comments and ignoring them. But after days upon days, months upon months, of constantly trying to convince myself everything would be alright, that soon things would return to being like they were in the beginning. But diving blindly into your arms for the comfort of love i blinded myself to your faults and problems. So desperate for love i forgot to guard my heart. Wanting everything to work out like in fairy tales I dropped all defenses and walls around myself. Trusting you with my frail and vulnerable heart. But like many times before my trust was misplaced. Accusations and harsh words exchanged, I realized it was pointless, you cant save someone who doesnt want to be saved, let alone someone who refuses to believe he's losing himself. Breaking my bond with you was painful and shattered my heart into a million pieces. My soul crying out for your love, wishing and reminicsing about the past. So much passion, lost. Letting you go i had to depend on myself. Everything you built and crushed I have to rebuild, this time for myself. Learning to depend on myself and not others for happiness. Time will heal my wounds. Everyday that passes this rift between us widens. A constant reminder of what was and will never be again. Ill love again one day. Love is spontaneous and unexpected. Not to be treated like it has an on/off switch. I'll always care for you, for the temporary happiness you gave me away from my depression. Fate cant be avoided only accepted. Though I will always love you, i have to let go. in losing yourself im scared of being/becomming lost with you. Maybe you'll let the next love that comes into your life save you from the monster you've become. For now i cant...I have to save myself.

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I know what its like when memories make you wince & love
letters are like obituaries,& photo albums are books of
the dead. I need no reminders I'll forget the past and lay
it to rest. [but I loved you]"

Post edited at 5:41 pm on Sep. 13, 2008 by Prince o palities

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"It is the wrong question to ask, and therefore, as one  might expect, has
no right answer." - Hans von Campenhausen

This is the philosophy of my life.

Post edited at 5:41 pm on Sep. 13, 2008 by Prince o palities

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"It is the wrong question to ask, and therefore, as one  might expect, has
no right answer." - Hans von Campenhausen

This is the philosophy of my life.

Post edited at 5:41 pm on Sep. 13, 2008 by Prince o palities

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"It is the wrong question to ask, and therefore, as one  might expect, has
no right answer." - Hans von Campenhausen

This is the philosophy of my life.

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I got bored babysitting.

I know I'm not going to win this contest, but this whole writing poetry thing is at least giving me something to do. Even if I am terrible.

A scream, a shout,
A bang, he walks out,
As she begins to cry
She just wants to go back
Way into the past
So she'll no longer wish to die.

She wants to go back to the nights in his car,
Talking, wishing, holding hands in the dark,
While he all of a sudden turns the radio on,
Blasting aloud their favorite song,
And as they sing at the top of their lungs,
A man passes on his nightly run,
An overjoyed grad speaks to his new boss,
A baby is born and another one lost,

But these two teenage lovers,
As they sit and they smile,
Are so unaware as they will be in awhile
They're self absorbed and naive
And can only focus on,
That one little spark in between their two arms

The spark which eventually turns into a kiss,
Which turns into a moment of pure and true bliss,
A shared moment, a touch here and there,
Which one week later turns into a scare,
But together they stand, in a mutual bind,
Breathing sighs of relief at that negative sign,
Just like they did when the Seagulls lost,
As he scored an education with that one last toss.

And this poor little girl, who thought she was complete
Is all alone to suffer the ultimate feat
Because the bliss is all over,
Only the memories remain
She's even wondering if it was worth it to play the game.
Forever, he'd said as he'd kissed her sweet soul,
But there's no such thing as forever, as she now knows.

Yet this girl is strong, she'll carry through.
No matter how hard it'll be to do.
She tells herself she has to survive,
Because, clever girl, she knows this is life.
And life is a beautiful, complicated thing.
But most of all it is huge,
And certainly surprising.
And she has to trust fate, and rewake the dying
Part of her deep down inside,
Who just wants to give up, just wants to hide.

All these years this part of her soul
Hasn't needed to come out, because of her beau
But now that he's gone, she needs to be brave
She'll expose her whole self until she can firmly say,
That she can stand on her own two feet,
That she can live even through defeat.
That she can cope, even alone,
Just like it says she does at the end of this poem.

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this is my favorite of all i have read so far. it's absolutely amazing.

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[Taylor] [[Recklessly Invisible]]

Driving in silence but I like it just fine
Turnpike thruway heading due north
Back to the city is it already that time?
Wrapped in smells of woodsmoke and life

Sharing the leaves
Caught in your hair
Sharing the words
floating away

Sharing the silence
taht brings us together
Back home to
the Start of the week

heavy feet walking subway stair stomping
Breath held tight against subway car heat

Your body feels light and your T-shirt back's sticking
You're here for a reason you can't just be leaving

Your heart may be free and your life si your own
Your soul is my soul clenched in my fist

Drifting apart won't find me alone
Moving away from standing still alone

Pinch me or hit me this can't be my life

i'm only eighteen i slept at least three

It's not the city or family that's wrong or not right
A lifetime of love and exploring and strife

Leaving with you
That I can deal with...

Leaving as one
Too much like death

Meeting you later
Promise you'll be there

Your eyes feel like home
And that's all that i'll need

You're not in my thoughts more like in my blood
The warmth of your skin is my own private season

I know it takes courage I think that I could

Never be no
babe
i'm ready to go

From our rooftop to sleepwalking on air

From eighteen years to my last night with you

Mon dernier jour avec toi and i'll be with you forever


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I'm about to give you some heart like a organ donor-Ras Kass