He dumped me yesterday. We had been having a fantastic time lately. He's got issues with my past. There's this guy who used to be my friend from before I met my ex. And back in the day, we used to make out and I once gave him oral. But then we were just friends, and a couple years later he introduced me to the prick that dumped me yesterday. Ok, I knew from the start that he was extremely jealous. And even though this was my first bf it was no mistery to me that the past should be kept in the past, untold. Now, one day he asked me and I lied because I was afraid of his reaction, I immediately came clean though, and then Hell roke loose... he started judging me and name calling me for the past, asking question after question...
He always said he'd get over it. Well yesterday he dumped me. He told me I had been a shit girlfriend because I used to talk to this guy in front of him, "making a fool" out of him, disrespecting him, etc, because I hadn't been honest and told him that he was my ex friend with benefits. (BTW, I stopped talking to this guy the minute he found out about the past). Well, 4 years ago when I was with that guy, how was I supposed to know that I'd fall in love with one of his friends two years later?
Well, he talked to his exes too, and I had no idea they were exes. His excuse? It was different because they had been girlfriends, not some horny friends.
Now, there was this girl he used to like. Yesterday he told me he was going back to pursuing her because she's better than me. I guess this girl will finally be happy since she's been flirting with him throughout our relationship.
I was doing NC, but he added me to MSN again today. I was determined to being civil. I was already miserable, but maybe he had something important to say. He kept talking about my past.
I told him to fuck off and quit being such a bully, he's already told me he's better off, what's the point in making me more miserable?
And how come I can't get over this jackass?! I still love him with all my heart and want him
Post edited at 2:11 pm on July 13, 2008 by offcenter