How can a person love two people at one time? I never had this happen before. it's really strange. It's like, I love my room mate, but I keep telling myself not any more than friendship.
I love another guy, who I am dating. let's just call him "gary".
I mean, though, I and my room mate agreed that there was nothing between us. and when I'm going out with "gary", I have eyes only for him.
but any other time, especially around my room mate, I feel strange, like I can't make direct eye contact anymore.
They both have highly compatible personalities with me, also.
room mate: funny, laid back, not very serious. He forgets things a lot, so I have to remind him now and then of things. I also never had anyone so into my cooking(every other room mate I've ever had was picky. he loves all my cooking).
con's: He doesn't take anything very serious. It's hard to tell if he's depressed or just intensely thinking about something. Extremely antisocial, but that's what amazes me about him.
"gary": very intelligent, has a humorous side, and just easy to be around. I can tell he is very determined to get what he wants. I love his eyes(and wish he wouldn't hide them behind sunglasses...).
con's: I can't tell what he is thinking either...nor can I see his eyes because he wears sunglasses all the time I've seen him.
I can usually read minds(not word for word, mind you, just basic emotions), so it's very odd I can't tell what either of them are thinking or feeling. It's like, I look into my room mate's eyes, and I can get lost in how deep they seem. I can't see "gary's" eyes, so it's a little bit unnerving.
ugh, I'm so ready to find the love of my life all of a sudden, when I made a promise years ago never to fall in love. so much for that promise, I guess nothing seems guaranteed nor clear.
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