you ever get depressed, but then forget why you were? but the feelings are still there? that's kind of it, but it's with every feeling, happy, angry, i forget why i felt it and it just stays floating in my head. when im REALLY down my brain doesn't slow down, it almost SPEEDS up and finds more reasons to be sad, forgets anything good, just bad. and it sucks trying to talk to people because i feel so alone with my thoughts, it's like when i tell someone "you don't know how i feel" i really mean it...i used to think i was a schizo but im not!

i don't think i was suicidal because the doc gave me cymbalta instead of a placebo a placebo wouldn't of sent me over the edge. i wonder if i can sue him?

i want to be with people and i want to do everything at once but i stop because i can't, i want to swim with everyone you know i want to be physical with girls but i feel fat, even though im not just have love handles. i can't control the things going on up there. how do you?

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Maybe you are bi-polar, but that doesn't mean you were never suicidal.

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Orangehatboy at his finest, BITCH