i have been really low for basically a year, i have self harmed (superficially) but i have found that drowning out my thoughts stops this, keeps horrible and undesirable thoughts from my mind. self harm is not my problem. i feel like i am sinking deeper and deeper into darkness and soon i won't be able to fight against it, i will just be left drowning in the endless darkness.

i haven't talked to my friends for the whole of the summer holidays and i have no desire to do so, i don't care about anything i used to like, nothing brings me pleasure. i sleep until 3pm or later and don't care about eating, i only eat when i feel it gnawing away at my inside, i find no pleaure in it. i spend the whole day drowning out my brain with tv and music and i just feel so low i want it to stop but it won't and when i go back to school it will become even worse, it alway does...

i just don't know what to do.....

great things dont happen over night so be patient,and loook
in your heart, and thats the anwser.