I havent been here in a long time, but i feel like i need to get on here and ask for advise once again.. Ive been with chelsea for almost 8 months. im 18, she is too. and we both started college this fall. we do go to the same school, but i dont see her a whole lot.
i work when im not at college, all my classes are in the morning, then i work till 9 or ten as soon as college gets out..
we hardly see eachother, and money is tight, im depending on my part time job to pay fo gas, its an hour long drive.. so we cant really go out when we do see eachother. she doesnt have a job, and she has one more credit class then me..
im tierd, stressed, i have to wait until thursdays( next thursday, not this one ) pay check to even get my books, so i cant really do my homework..
she is going to start doing a drama club thing, on thursday and friday nights, which cuts out time we can spent toghether by like 2/3s. i begged her not to, but she will anyways.
i cant help feeling resentful towards her, keeping me off the market, but not keeping time for me. theres plenty of intrested girls in my classes, but out of honor, i havent flirted with any of them. most dont think im intrested now..
I realize that i probably wont spend much more time with someone else, than i spend with chelsea, but i feel trapped.
theres other things too. I thought i was indifferent before, being with my last girl, angel, angel was always hairless in her pubic area. but in the 8 months chelsea has shaved twice. she knows its a huge turnoff for me, but she wont do it.
shes also the least adventurous person you will ever meet, sexually and otherwise.
she hasent really done anything to make me not want to be with her, i just dont want to be with her really, and its unfair to her, becuase she has no idea, but everytime a girl makes eye contact with me , i remind myslef, " im taken " , but " i just dont feel like im taken "
is this a normal feeling for students new to college?