I feel ugly and horrible.
is it me or is it my mind?
i wanna die, but somehow I want to live.
and hes not here, when I truly need him, hes not here.
and it hurts so much.
aghhh why.
i deserve this torture.
I need to starve until perfection. perfection to beauty.
that will be my hapiness.
I have to be strong.
I hope I can....