I'm SO happy cause i can have kids, it REALLY is a miracle(Thank God)
But im not able to care for it, I know that

My dad'll be pissed cause he's all 'No sex before marraige! Even if you're engaged) so he'll kick me out and I'll have to stay in my fiances one bedroom apartment
and me and fiance aren't able to afford a baby, we work minimum wage
and between the two of us that's not enough to properly provide for a baby

I don't believe in abortions so that option is out the window, and i really don't want to give up my miralce
But i don't want to be a bad mother....

I don't know what to do

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get in contact with a "crisis pregnancy" group.

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But, more on topic:

Wow, that is a VERY tough choice, and truthfully, even if I were in your shoes I have no idea what I'd do myself! Congrats on proving the doctors wrong though, it's just too bad you had to do it so quickly (very eager your body is to be stubborn and show doctors who's boss, lol.). Open adoptions are really something you could consider. It would allow your child to be raised by a supportive, loving, and able family, and you'd be able to get pictures, maybe even meet the child! It's definitely worth researching, and some agencies even allow you to help choose a family that you're comfortable with.

In your case, that seems like it could be a lovely choice. Raising a child really is hard, and it really wouldn't be fair for anyone involved for you and your fiance to make a choice that you don't feel prepared for. That being said though, raising a child on a lower-wage job isn't impossible, and there are plenty of wonderful, caring, and fantastic familes born out of an unplanned situation.

What's your fiance's take on this? Have you talked to him yet? What about even talking to your doctors (perhaps they could offer insight, or give you information on what the future could possibly hold for you and any future possible children)?

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So when you're happy (Hurray!), or sad (Aw!),
Or frightened (Eeek!), or mad (Rats!)
An interjection starts a sentence right.

Have you looked into government aid programs?

In the USA there's
WIC: http://www.fns.usda.gov/wic/
Welfare
Subsidized Housing: http://www.hud.gov/renting/
Medicaid: http://www.cms.hhs.gov/home/medicaid.asp

There's programs out there that can help you cover the cost of a baby.


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Holly.
Mama to Hunter Kai
Still missing you, LML. (1941-2007). ♥
"Nothing is worth more than this day."

but its all up to you.
just make sure its what YOU want, not anyone else.