We finally got together; we spent 1 and a half years together. She cheated on me.. Stupid me took her back.. Then we spend the last 6 or so months on and off.. Then we were back on, for good i thought..

Then she comes to me and says "I dont want to be with you anymore.. You're depressed and you're bringing me down. I love you, but i dont want a relationship, i want to be able to go to parties and have fun with other guys."
That fucked me right up.. That was 8 months ago..

To this day i still love her, i love her so much you would not believe.. But i would never take her back..
Im so sick of being lonely, and deperssed.. I lost most of my friends because of her being manipulative, making me not spend time with my friends..
Last 3 or so months i've been drinking heaps.. Just so i can feel good.. Doesn't work.. I just get emotional..

I don't know what to do, or who to talk to anymore.. I've spoken to my new friends about it, but none of them can help.. I've spoken to my school counseller, she said "you're just goingt thru a breakup, you'll be fine." And that was 6 months ago.. And i think i've gotten worse..
Anyone got advice, or something positive.. Thanks in advance..

EDIT: I was looking thru my old pics, and an album came up of me and her.. I opened it, and saw them.. They reminded me of everything we did together.. I feel so sad, i just feel like crying and throwing up..

Post edited at 3:01 am on Aug. 31, 2008 by Anonymous