I was awake and watching TV when I would become "stuck" like couldn't move, talk, or breathe. It wouldn't last longer than 5 seconds. My boyfriend was at home at the time. I am on Depakote, 500 mgs twice a day. So when I get to the ER, we were there so long, I missed my anti-anxiety medication, Xanax.

I was overly anxious and depressed. So my boyfriend had to go to work and his boss was a dick and said if he didn't show up, he would fire him. So he had to leave me alone in the hospital. I cried and was so afraid. I just felt out of control.

They gave me a shot which made me loopy and very sleepy. I fell asleep for 10-25 minutes when I woke up asking to be discharged. I wasn't a danger to myself or others and told me to follow up with my pychiatrist.

Well, my pychiatrist said to stay on the depakote but told me to tell my primary care physician to get a CT scan of my brain and get a brain wave scan.

I have anxiety, PTSD, and depression. Just treat me for it damn it! Right now, I am not on any medication because I am too afraid. I am waiting to get a new pychiatrist to help me.

I am just the same about. Same amount of depression, anxiety, flash backs, everything.

*sigh* I am destined to be sad and depressed the rest of my life. BTW, my boyfriend came and picked me up from the hospital afterwards and took me home to sleep.

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Ok... Do you need advice about anything, or just getting it off your chest?

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I kinda want advice on how to stay the course, stay strong, but I also want to vent.