Guy B wanted me back so we talked alot and in the last week we have declared each other boyfriend and girlfriend.

ive been trying to tell guy A its over but my heart keeps tell me im doing the wrong thing like leaving him is the most messed up thing in the world. in the last while, even though my initial feelings for him faded, a new feeling came up, a feeling of strong closeness between me and guy A..

i have strong feelings for guy B and guy B wants to be my boyfriend while guy A doesnt want that title, he wants to keep the relationship open.

well yesterday i had the intention of telling guy A, no more physical contact (as a first step because for some reason i cant come to just flat out rejecting him) and before i could say this, he started telling me how he spent the day thinking about life and he said, thank you for being in my life. Which is a big thing, hes a ex druggie trying to stay away from drugs but all his friends love to do drugs and in a way im his escape from that because when hes with me hes not gonna do any drugs because i dont do any.

i feel very stuck, i want to be honest and just be with guy B but i cant leave guy A, if im what makes a difference in someone's life i can leave them alone, thats my nature.

i know guy A couldnt accept being just my friend either.. this is a difficult choice for me right now.. id be really thankful if i could get some feedback on this because i am at a complete loss about this.

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