My sister is sixteen and she goes out practically every day and i am not going to lie i am jealous of her that she can do that.   so when i walk by i am like what you up to and she tells me and i walk away chuckling or snickering.  Nothing to do with her just because of the fact that she is sixteen doing this and i'm 20 and i'm stuck home.  

So my family went to the beach today and on the way back i try to make conversation with her and ask where her friend works and mistook something she said and she gives me a sarcastic answer and her and my mother laugh about it and i called her a bitch i know wrong but she just got me mad that i was simply trying to make conversation and i get laughed at.  she than says something like "WELL YOUR FAT AND HAVE NO LIFE" and that really bothered me not the fat part because i am  but the no life part because that is not by choice.  

She says that nonstop when she gets mad at me and has no idea that if i was suicidal it would be the time i do it because when she says it, it makes me wish i was dead because she is right.  20 years old and i can't go anywhere, can't see anyone unless they come over or online.  Not the same i know but when she says i have no life it is seriously like making fun of somebody with one hand because it is something i can't help and it hurts

Post edited at 9:34 am on July 21, 2008 by Anonymous

The hand thing was a metaphore

Friends do when they can but they don't usually cause i live in middle of nowhere

have tried bike but can't do it because i can't balance because of vision

Note: i'd never kill myself, i would never put my family through that

Post edited at 8:37 pm on July 20, 2008 by Anonymous

Especially something that isnt yourfault, and effects you in such a way.

There isnt much to say really mate to you. I know you said you dont like asking, but perhaps you should ask your mom to take you places.

And this allways makes me feel postive.

There is allways someone, somewhere, worst of then you.

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As for your condition, I just looked up a few sites and I don't see any reason why you are not eligible to drive.  Even if you are blind in one eye, a website I just read said that most states allow driving with one eye blindness. I would highly recommend that you look into that as much as you can.  Getting your license will give you that freedom from home that you really need.  

If you aren't able to get your license, then it's time to start accepting it.  Don't live in self pity, because all that really does is make you feel worse about your situation.  Try to think about what steps you are going to have to endure to ensure that you have a full life without driving privileges.  You mentioned that you are 20, even though it may be hard have you considered moving into town?  Many somewhat active towns have wonderful bus or subway systems that would be able to cart you around anywhere.  Basically, no matter what your obstacle is, there is always a way to overcome it as long as you don't sit and dwell.  Start thinking of solutions to your situation.

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Post edited at 8:47 pm on July 20, 2008 by Anonymous