i knew he always felt a bit like i was better than him tho cause he'd point out i'd get better grades and all that etc he was very insecure.. but ive just kinda realized that i did pick at him a lot about stuff.. i didnt mean to i guess women just do that.. you know like 'you're not doing it properly' or 'would u stop being a twat' and when we'd fall out & i'd say i didnt like the way things were.. he was like u blame for everything..and he continued to say it.. that i think everything's his fault/he cant do anything right, like nothing he eva did was good enough..

but i never thought that, but thinkin back i never told him the things i was appreciative for, all the things he did to make me smile and helped me with cause i just expected him to know i cared.. i told him i loved him i just expected him to know that doesnt change no matter if im having a moan.. plus i always found it really difficult to say the good stuff i'd get nervous.. but the fact that all that came outa my mouth was little random digs.. i guess i did give him the wrong idea and he'd tell people he hated me.. he spent a few months helping me pass an exam and i never even said thank u at the time..

i feel so bad, i was too busy thinkin 'whats his problem why's he so resentful of me and why the hell does he think i blame him for everything'  thinkin he just had a bad attitude.. that i didnt notice how i'd pick at him and not show him how much i cared..

we havent spoken in ages now, what should i do? =/

what to say, i don't know...

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Moist...
weird or gross???