It's usual to have little fights in relationships, right? Two months ago, we had a fight and broke up, but I thought we'd get back together since it was like a routine. But he just.. asked another girl out.. and I feel so hurt and betrayed.. she's one of my good friends.. there's more to the story but I'm too upset to write it in detail and I know you guys get bored easily and stuff. It's just hard to accept it, you know? And now I feel like I've given up on love itself.. after we've broken up, there have been guys coming up to me and asking me out, even some of my best guy friends, but I always say no because I'm too afraid I'll lose him.. I'm not the type of girl who likes to have flings.. and I'm not a kid anymore.. he was the first guy I ever truly loved..

And, well, I know this sounds a little cheesy, but I always wanted to 'save myself' for my husband, I know you guys don't understand the purpose behind it and that's okay, but I really am not the type of girl to go around kissing all the guys I've been with or like, and I don't flirt that much. And I told him how I didn't want to have sex before marriage, and he pressured me.. we almost did it, and now I feel like such a slut.. I'm blaming myself so much.. and on top of that, I really don't find pleasure in falling in love anymore.. I'm so afraid of losing that one person, I don't want to even take the chance anymore.. I'm just so scared.. and I don't have anyone to really talk to.. I've always been the listener among my friends, no-one really asks how I'm doing, so I'd rather not talk to my real-life friends about it..

You don't have to reply, it's alright, even a 'I've read what you've written' is enough. Thank you.

2. it sounds like he wouldn't be the one for you,,,if I where you I would look for somebody who believes the same way as me.

I hope this helps!!!

good luck!

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Dream as if you'll live forever...Live as if you'll die

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i read it and that sucks =[
but i don't understand why you feel like a slut when you "almost" did it

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I never even wanted to go as far as 2nd base before marriage. I know this sounds like the craziest shit ever, but I can control myself and wait, and if I can do it, why not, you know? I feel like one because I went beyond the boundaries I had set for myself.

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1. its not wrong to save yourself for your husband...I believe the same way, and i'm a guy.

2. it sounds like he wouldn't be the one for you,,,if I where you I would look for somebody who believes the same way as me.

I hope this helps!!!

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Thank you for posting this, I feel a little better. The thing is.. I don't feel like looking for anyone anymore because of how crushed I feel, to the point where I wouldn't mind dying a virgin, honestly. Thank you once again.

Quote: from Frenchie3477 at 7:58 pm on July 22, 2008

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awe im sorry. well, he doesnt sound like that great of a guy. IF you guys are repeatedly breaking up and getting back together, it doesnt sound like that much of solid love. Relax and see what happens.

good luck!

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Thank you. We've broken up for good, but it hurts to see him to so happy with her and asking her out just two days after we broke up, it was like he was waiting for us to break up.. he promised me so many things.. and me being the idiot that I was, believed him.. and I gave so much..

Thank you again.