I put an ad up on craigslist.  no big.  just wanted to meet a guy, and if things clicked, maybe do a bit more.

without going into detail...part way through, he says something about his wife.

I should have said "wtf?! get out of my house!"  

but I couldn't muster up the balls to tell him to leave.  

so afterwards, he's going on and on about doing this again as a possibility...

How can someone disregard the sanctity of marriage on at least a personal level???

I'm not innocent.  I'm guilty too.  I wanted my first time to do anything like that to be special, and I was looking for mr. right.  

this guy took advantage of that need.  but I took advantage of the situation, needless to say.  

fuck3r used my room mates mouthwash without asking(which I effectively replaced). I'm gonna cry my eyes out and beg the higher powers that be for forgiveness(I'm not even religious).  hah, fat chance of that happening.  I'm a bad person, even though I started with good intentions and was basically blindsighted.  

I believe what he told me as far as having no std's, given when we started he was wanting assurance that I had none(I have the paperwork to prove at that point I was a virgin and was std free).

It's embarrasing to admit this story.  but it's the truth.  stay away from craigslist as far as dating is concerned.  go to a dating service like eharmony or match.com.

don't become a heathen like me(though it wasn't on purpose...I'll still pay for my sin I'm sure...and I am sorry and will be even more sorry when death comes).

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Love is not mine to have, nor to be shared with me...
May I find love in the next life...

I've done great transactions with good people with electronics and FS items, though

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You.. let me believe...
and then I failed again.

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There's something about sex with a married man...the way he's breaking his and his wife's courtship to be with another man...it's so fucking erotic, Idc what anybody says! Oh and don't worry, you're forgiven.

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eh, I don't think it's up to us humans whether we're forgiven.   thank you for caring...but I just don't think I deserve it.  I mean, I broke a vow that I fight to earn the right to have.

How can I even look at marriage seriously if I just helped someone take for granted?  I may have not meant to, but the sin still exists.(I may not be christian, but I know when I've done wrong.  after all, but good intentions pave the road to hell).

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Love is not mine to have, nor to be shared with me...
May I find love in the next life...