I am a fifteen year old 5'4 female and I weight around 110 pounds... and I also feel significantly, horribly, fat. I'm not pretty. I'm ugly. I don't have a flat stomach, my body does not look like the FUCKING bodies of girls on television, and it's driving me insane! I hate beautiful people, truly, I do. I hate not being 90 pounds. I am 5'4. I should be around 100 pounds, 90 pounds, not 110. Fat fucking ugly people that have no lives are 110 pounds. People that spend their entire life single, people that have no friends, people that... that... people that are looked down upon are fucking 110 pounds. Wait, well, that's me. Nevermind. It fits.

I hate eating. I really hate eating, but you know what? I eat anyway because I have no self control. I eat two meals a day (I get up too late in the morning to have both breakfast and lunch most of the time), I usually have a snack at night, and I eat and eat and I hate it but I can't control it! If I don't eat I get bitchy. My body needs food, dammit. It doesn't functionally properly without it.  

UGH. I'm just so STRESSED with myself right now. Why do I even bother watching television? All it does is make me feel bad that I don't look like them. Makes me feel like SHIT that I don't look like Peyton from One Tree Hill, or Blair from Gossip Girl. They have flat stomachs. They're pretty. I'm not.

Why must society constantly throw in my face that being average is lame? Society is against me. Fuck them all. Ugh.

End rant.

Post edited at 5:42 pm on Aug. 19, 2008 by Sincerely Dark

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Scream it out loud.

But seriously, you aren't.

Post edited at 5:40 pm on Aug. 19, 2008 by Fortis Obscurum

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I dream not to be a Super Hero, but a Super Villain.
Then will I unite the world, where other Heroes have failed.
   -Eric D. Chandler

society's always going to be like that. accept it.

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brian is my honey bunch :) 3

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This rant sounds a lot like a plot for attention.

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Aren't we all seeking attention. The point of this website...

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"Save the cheerleader, save the world."

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110 isn't fat. By saying that it is, is EXTREMELY insulting to many people. So STFU!

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Yeah, I was offended after reading the rest of it.
Pfft.

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I'm sick of following my dreams.
I'm just going to ask them where they're going and hook up with them later.

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Quote: from DemolitionxXxLover at 8:41 pm on Aug. 19, 2008

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110 isn't fat. By saying that it is, is EXTREMELY insulting to many people. So STFU!

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Yeah, I was offended after reading the rest of it.  
Pfft.

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I FUCKING HATE TODAY'S SOCIETY!  

I am 5'4. I should be around 100 pounds, 90 pounds, not 110. Fat fucking ugly people that have no lives are 110 pounds. People that spend their entire life single, people that have no friends, people that... that... people that are looked down upon are fucking 110 pounds. It's crazy!  

By reading this i find that you are telling yourself that you are fat, not society. In order to feel pretty or "skinny" you need to embrace the fact that you cant be 90 fucking pounds like every other friggin anorexic in the society. Embrace the beauty of a healthy body weight and a few curves. BE WHO YOU ARE. Why the hell do you have to hate eating, and hate yourself? Theres no reason for it!! You dont way 500 pounds, you weigh the same as me.

I hate eating. I really hate eating, but you know what? I eat anyway because I have no self control. I eat two meals a day (I get up late in the morning to have both breakfast and lunch most of the time), I usually have a snack at night, and I eat and eat and I hate it but I can't control it! If I don't eat I get bitchy. My body needs food, dammit. It doesn't functionally properly without it.  

it sounds like you have a lot of self control. you stress about it too much. stress is probably going to cause you to gain weight, and it certainly doesnt make you happier. Your body needs food and you need to give it what it needs, no exceptions. If you stop worrying about the weight, you wont hate eating. Just relax. just be a teenager.

UGH. I'm just so STRESSED with myself right now. Why do I even bother watching television? All it does is make me feel bad that I don't look like them. Makes me feel like SHIT that I don't look like Peyton from One Tree Hill, or Blair from Gossip Girl. They have flat stomachs. They're pretty. I'm not.

dont compare yourself to them. stop it right now, just be who you look like and how you are. stop stressing out, relax. just be. stop worrying, compaining and ranting.

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