she said i was spoilt, a waste of time, space, energy and money and that i brought shame on the entire family cos she had such high expectations of me.

she was so spiteful about it. i didn't even hear the rest of the rant (it went on for a long time) i walked away.

my mum says to ignore it but i cant, i now question everything i am doing or have done. its got to be true cos she wouldn't have said it otherwise.

i now have to spend all day Friday with her on a canal boat for my grandpa's b'day. if she starts up again i may have to throw myself overboard and drown myself.

grrrr shes really got to me.

last year b4 xmas she didn't know what present to get my mum so she told me all these horrendous things about my father (prob. all true) to get me to feel sorry for my mum and so i could suggest a good present.

i didn't say a word. she got a dressing gown.

i really dont know how I'm going to survive on fri.  

sorry for the really long rant.

^ How I would've felt. I'm sorry.

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Get krunk! Get drunk! Get f*cked up!
Throw ya hands in the air thats whats up!

Also to get back at her just start working a little harder and getting top grades and wave them in her face, then she can be quiet can't she hehe.

im sure her heart will give out on the way down and cover up your tracks!
and at least she will throw a hip out

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I thought i knew alot, until someone who knew more told me i didnt.

Tell her how it's effecting you, be polite and say 'I know and I will try harder. I'm sorry' even if your not sorry. She'll realise she's got to you and hopefully stop ranting at you as much.

Post edited at 12:12 pm on Aug. 20, 2008 by Jessica93

Post edited at 12:11 pm on Aug. 20, 2008 by Jessica93

Post edited at 12:22 pm on Aug. 20, 2008 by Eos

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when you came in, the air went out,
and every shadow filled up with doubt

prob solved well for me i dunnaw what your cercumstances are again excuse my spelling

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is emo is love, love is pain and pain hurts.
so love hurts and so it goes on in a cycle.