Today, I got the closure I needed. And, today, I was able to say 'goodbye'. He's the first ex that I've ever had to say goodbye, to. He's the first person that I've loved, that I've had to let go. But, no longer can I let him keep me bound, via a tiny string. No longer can I abide to his chlidish demeanor.
What we had, was special, and meant to be, but not permanent, nor forever. What we had was temporary, but it happened for a reason. Whatever reason that may be, we have yet to find out.
I will grow from this. I have to learn from this. This isn't the End, but only the Beginning. My Journey hasn't ended. It's only yet to Begin.
What matters now is not of the past. What matters now is of the Present. What matters most, is my Future.
Our future, not together.
I do not regret stepping over that thin line, we had between 'friendship' and 'friends with benefits'. What I do regret is that we didn't speak of our true feelings. What I do regret is not telling you, that, in the end, I fell in love with you.
This is the hardest break up, of my life. Not because I'm losing a lover.
But because I'm losing my best friend.
Who knows what the future holds, for either of us. Perhaps we can find each other, in the end. I'm not holding hopes up, on that one. But, no one can predict the future paths we may one day take.
Today, he is no longer on my phone. He is no longer on my Myspace. He is no longer on my Youtube. And, with the end of this, he'll no longer take up such great space, in my mind.
I've got the greatest of friends, the best family, and I've got a good education and job, in the palm of my hands, this time. I'm not alone, in this.
So...Farewell. I love you. And I'm sorry it came to this.
-*Sorry for the rant, LW.
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*Forever & Always...Yours*