the first day was okay. some people stopped by my dorm and introduced themselves, and we talked and stuff, they were nice. me and one of my roommate bonded. i hung out with people from my old school. it was fine.

but the first night, i went to one of my friends dorm from my old school. i stayed there for like 4 hours and i got back to my own dorm around midnight. in the time i was gone, all 3 of my roommate had bonded with each other and were talking and laughing and stuff. i tried to include myself, but i was clearly the outsider. i felt uncomfortable, and it was almost 1 in the morning anyways, so i went to bed.

the next day (yesterday), was a hard day. i did not want to get out of bed. i felt like an outsider in my own room. my roommates seemed to ignore me.

i tried to go back to my friends from my old school. they had made friends on there floor and seemed to bond with them a lot, so i didn't really feel included.

so i just sort of went back to my dorm and stayed there. i hated it. i started to get really homesick.

i went to get some food, and i saw my old friends roaming around in new cliques, talking and laughing. everybody was making friends and i was just sort of left out in the cold.

i woke up this morning and im hearing about all these parties that happened last night. i wasn't invited by anyone to anything. i feel alone. i'm don't fit in here.

If you put all of your energy and time into your schoolwork and achieving good grades, you can just let everything else happen naturally. Please don't waste your money, the government's money, your parents' money, or scholarship money on worrying about parties and such.

Let's not forget the meaning of college.

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"In a world we need to share;
it's not enough to stand and stare." --Pink Floyd

Maintain a positive attitude, think about the person that you want to be socially, and emulate it.  Don't stop saying whats up to your roommates when you walk in and ask what they're doing later.  You are TWO DAYS into this, you can't expect to be best friends with people yet but RIGHT NOW is the time to forge relationships and set the tone for the rest of the year.

Besides just remaining optimistic, two other points that you should keep in mind:

You WILL find someone that you connect with, even if you feel like you are not very compatible with the people that you are meeting right now.   Not everyone in college is the same, and you will find someone, or a group of people, that has a similar personality and sense of humor as you.  Humans cant be expected to bond with everyone they meet, but with the variety of characters at a college you will with someone.

Get involved with things that interest you to meet new people.  I joined the school newspaper and now the people there are some of my best friends in the world, we hang out all the time, party together , and my college experience would be pretty different right now if i hadn't found something on campus that I wanted to be involved with.  

Trust me, I know how you're feeling, I've been there...I know people that are there now and I'm getting them out of it too because I know the situation. If you need more help, if you have any other bad days or need encouragement, send me a PM.


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