Anyway, it's gotten me into a mood, where I want to hurt myself.
Like a depressing mood and shit but then again it makes me feel better.
It's confusing.
Like I want to cut.
But I won't.

I did end up digging myself with my nails.
It went deep.
I was upset, but it helped.
I bandaged them up and shit which I never used to.
But anyway, this was kind of a rant type thing, or a way to let off steam, if you want to give advise I'd appreciate it.

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Congratulations.

You are the official proof that people with more teeth
than brain cells shouldn't breed with each other.

You should go talk to someone. I guarantee that it will make you feel better. You can even talk to me if you'd like. I know exactly what you are going through. (I wanted to cut a few hours ago...so I drove safety pins through my ears, and pierced them.)

Also, you are going to have to find a stronger coping method. There are millions of things out there to try, which I am sure you already know. Undepressing music, writing, drawing, running, etc, etc...

Just remember that things always get better in the end. :)