Shit. When I lost that job, I think I lost a part of me. It was my life. I met this amazing perfect girl when I was working there. I pretty much knew that I wasn't good enough for her, and that she was way out of my league. The exact time I first encountered her, she met her boyfriend.

We worked together for over a year. I knew she had a boyfriend, but she kept making me believe that I could have something with her. Guess she didn't know, and does that to all the guys. And like a fool, I believed. I didn't give up. I tried everything I could to win her over and just let her know that I was more than interested. Until I realized it wasn't going to happen.

Like a fool I moped around with my heart broken for the longest time. Now, I consider myself over it, and it being a mistake learned from. I get dreams though, of her. Lately I've been having dreams about her. The gal of my dreams. And I wake up everyday and realize it's only a dream, and that shes gone out of my life for good. I just can't believe that she doesn't feel anything about me. She probably even forgot I existed. She was my world.

My parents must think I'm gay. Truth is, I just go for the wrong girls. I'm lost and confused. I don't know who I am, or who to be. As of now, I have no social circle. As of now, I'm nothing. A nobody, not doing anything with myself. The pressure this sort of society puts on a person can be unbearable.

As of now I feel as though I'm just wasting oxygen. Stuck in this hole. Trying my best to escape, but I can't. I just wanna be someone, and be with someone.

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There's no present. There's only the immediate future and the recent past.
 - George Carlin

And here's the catch - there's no such thing as the perfect girl. I've been hearing teh same thing for ages and ages, every single girl a guy meets is the PERFECT one. Then a few months later, the next girl he meets on the street is the PERFECT one. I've been keeping tags on the so called PERFECT ones, and, hell - every next offer is better than the last, so I'd rather wait until life offers someone truly, absolutely, no scathes (ZERO mind you, if I can find even just one thing, you're off the shopping list haha) perfect.

One thing though, it seems you've come to your senses, at least a good start. The amazing thing is, the fact you can be aware that you're wasting oxygen puts you a step above the rest. Congrats for learning to be more aware of those around you. Many losers never even consider the fact that they even breathe lest consume our precious food, and crap all over the place for humanity.

Before you can be with someone, try to be with yourself. As soon as you are at peace with yourself, then you could impart that to another person.

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The key to victory is the element of surprise.
When that doesn't work, I guess I just gotta gun you down.