there's no one i'd rather be with. she's so fucking amazing. i love her, and would do anything for her. she's the only person i've ever loved, and told her i loved. i don't just say it, i mean it; with all my heart.

she sent me an email yesterday, saying she needed to do something... that it wasn't a big deal, but she stll needed to do it... and that she misses me.

... but then i found out from her best friend that where she's going, is to see her ex-boyfriend who's cheated on her twice.

i flipped. i'm so afraid i'm going to lose her. i've never been more afraid/terrified in my entire life. i can't do this. i love her so fucking much... but i can't wait for her any longer, and i won't wait for her if she's going to go see him. he's cheated on her twice... and i'd never do anything to hurt her, ever. she's the biggest thing that's ever happened to me in my entire life... i can't move on, but, it looks like something i'm going to have to try, otherwise i'm only going to keep hurting myself. i emailed her back, and am waiting on her response, or explanation as to why she'd do this.

what do you think?

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I think your waiting way too long for someone that doesn't value the feelings you have for them.

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We kept in touch for about three-four years, then one day she decided she wanted to go over to her ex-boyfriends house, just too "See how he's doing".

Shortly after, she broke up with me...I was literally WEEKS away from being able to MOVE...FOR GOOD...To where she lived.

Sorry...Just felt I needed to share this, not trying to drag you down, but shit happens dude.

There's plenty of bitches in the world, find yourself a new one. =\

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