I was laying in bed about an hour ago, feeling extremely depressed. I got up to go to the restroom, and I looked into the mirror and burst into tears. I felt myself trying to bottle it up again,but for once I decided to let it all out. It felt so horrible, all these memories coming back that had once caused me so much pain. I was reliving all my mistakes for a whole hour. I never knew how loud I could cry until now. For an hour I was histerically loud, crying into my pillow.

I feel very relieved now, but I still have so many suppressed feelings that I know I'm going to let out at some point. I'm dreading it.

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i have a good cry every now and again too. it makes me feel better for a little bit, but then im back to thinking of all the crap that started it

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Exactly.

It feels good for the time being, but like a day later, I'm still upset.

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R.I.P Daddy 01/06/1970 - 08/26/2008
I'll always love you and I miss you so much.

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you're all retarded

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Go to hell. This is a support site, not a "I'm so cool, let me diss everyone who is going through a hard time" site.

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Quote: from sad and young at 7:28 am on July 9, 2008

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you're all retarded

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Go to hell. This is a support site, not a "I'm so cool, let me diss everyone who is going through a hard time" site.

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you are making some assumptions here that arent true

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One of the "Mystical Experiences" is some 16 year old kid amazed that
he hallucinates his old spanish class in a town square

Post edited at 8:06 am on July 9, 2008 by circa

I'm not sure whether the experience was good or bad for you so haven't got much else to say.. but it's probably not helpful for you to think that forcing yourself not to cry or lose it is the same as successfully bottling up emotions. Both sides has its merits.

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I do the same thing, except instead of it ever being expressed, I let the lack of emotional interpretation completely control me, and as a result, I have the tendency to make some of the worst decisions that I'd never make otherwise.

I just don't express negative emotions. I can't; I don't know what it is, but I can hardly cry, yelp in pain, etc. It's weird. =/

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"I let the lack of emotional interpretation completely control me"

sorry what
what the hell

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One of the "Mystical Experiences" is some 16 year old kid amazed that
he hallucinates his old spanish class in a town square