Also, you may find it helpful to talk to a professional about this eventually. I'm not saying now because I know its scary, eventually, hopefully soon. Its hard, I know, but hopefully you will find it helpful to talk to a professional to work through some of the thoughts and feelings about the rape. If you trust your boyfriend enough, maybe he can go with you?

If you want to talk now, you can PM me.

Post edited at 7:51 am on April 18, 2009 by W o n d e r l a n d

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Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy.

Talking about it is a good thing because it gives you chance to process things and so that it doesn't truly affect you in future relationships. I believe this might be difficult for your boyfriend to help you with because he will be wanting to hurt the guy, and just want to protect you from now on. I personally think it's good that you have told someone but now it's time to talk to someone who are a professional and know how to deal with this sort of situation.

I don't know what you did about the fact he raped you however it is illegal, it's been two years but still it's wrong to be raped and it's possible that something can still be done. I think it would be best to talk to someone and move past, I'm not saying that you are hung up on what happened but still my point is that it may affect you in unknown ways, getting the help now would help you be able to talk through it and not let it affect you so badly in the future.

If you ever want to talk about things feel free to PM me or if you want to talk about what I have said.

*Emma*

Post edited at 6:30 am on April 19, 2009 by Corrupted Innocence

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There are a lot of things that can results from rape.  Many disorders such as post traumatic stress disorder and rape trauma syndrome.  Eating disorders, anxiety disorders, panic attacks and self injury can also occur in a victim of rape.

It's absolutely fantastic you opened up to someone you trust.  That's one of the best things you can do in a situation like this.  You need to lean on your boyfriend and talk to him about how you feel.  Hold him and talk to him, let him inside.  Everything you're feeling right now is normal.  Absolutely everything.  Your boyfriend is a great start, but because he isn't a trained medical professional there is only so much he can do.

There have been many cases of people being raped who said they were fine with it all, then many years later experienced things that were associated with what happened.  Meaning, they developed disorders or emotional problems as they didn't actually deal with it, they merely hid it.  I strongly suggest getting in touch with a counsellor or psychologist and talking to them about this.  Like I said, your boyfriend is a great start but there is only so much he can do.

Talk to your boyfriend and open up to him but please try seeking some professional help.  I did, and it personally helped me with a lot of things I was thinking/feeling/experiencing.  It's still possibly for you to file a report on the rape, even though it's been so long.  There isn't much they can do, but at least they will have it on file in case ANYTHING comes up.  You never know, it may stop him from doing this to another girl in future.

You may think "he was my ex/boyfriend, he won't do it to another girl" and I thought that too for a while.  But if someone does this to a person, they are capable of doing it again to another person.  Please consider that.

You seem to be handling this quite well, which is great.  My suggestions, as I said, are to lean on your boyfriend and open up to him.  You may feel very relived by doing this, like a huge load of information is off your back.  But also try looking into talking to a counsellor.  They do help you with all the complicated stuff your boyfriend can't.

Good luck and PM me if you'd ever like to talk.  My inbox is always open.  I hope this helped in the slightest.

- Sarah  :)