Beofre all this my life was going to hell, had social services involved and all that junk, they didn't solve the problem.

Everyday I feel like dying, just to escape this boring world of nothingness, this road going to no where.

The only thing that kept me going was my computer which distract me from life, they let me escape reality and enter a different world where none of my problems exist.

Recently my parents took away my computer and gave me a new crappy one which is shit and can't do jack on it.

So I'm back to my depressed self again, waiting to escape, I don't know if I can make it threw the holidays in this house, suicidal thoughts have been going on in my head.

First of all, have you ever thought about talking to your parents? Maybe there's something you can do if you make them realize that they are being a bit overprotective. You might want to do that if you haven't done so. sometimes people don't realize that harm they are doing to other. You might want to step in and remind them about what is going on.

See, I'm not sure it's good to escape reality. The best thing would be to face it. Try to face your problems instead of running away from them. If you don't have a computer then you might want to try making friends (assuming that you want to continue falling out of reality). that would probably be better because they would help you a lot more than a computer. You would have the company of other human beings, and your parents might not seem as bad as you think they are.

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All I know is that I know everything
-S0LITUDE