Everyone left and I started cleaning up her apartment - and to my knowledge, The guy I like was sleeping in the spare room , and this "friend" of mine sleeping in her own - and I was crashing on the couch. I go to put my sweater away in the spare room which my bag was.. I knocked on the door and no answer.. I turn on the light - empty bed.. and right away I couldn't help but cry.  

My "friend" had just given me a speech about how she didn't want to lose me as a friend over a guy, and I was her best friend and the truest friend she's ever had - then.. she's crawling into bed with him.  

I couldn't even explain how heartbroken I was..and am. I feel sick to my stomach when I think about how I have to talk to her later - I was so upset.. that she just crawled into bed with him - knowing how much I like him - and him .. just.. I don't even know.  

Whenever I get my hopes about anything - I seem to get terribly let down - It sucks and I told myself I'll get over it, which I will eventually.. but the whole thing with HER - I lost trust and respect for her .. and a lot of it.. I could never do that to my friends.  
I ended up leaving her place - calling my best friend crying (who's actually been there for me) and her boyfriend over heard I was walking to their house - and made me catch a cab - even paid for it too.  
Thank God for real friends eh.  

What a let down though - how am I even supposed to look at her ? and we JUST started talking again too .. What am I even supposed to say to her ?! I'm allowed to be upset right?

Also - when I was leaving.. she wanted me to stay there.. and started crying, and hugging me.. I had absolutely no emotion towards her .. no forgiveness, no hate.. nothing. I was completely soulless to her

Post edited at 8:04 am on Nov. 16, 2008 by Tr0uble89

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rip brandibear.  Oct 1996 - June 29 2009

atleast it shows you you shouldnt even bother making friends with her again. stick with the people you know you can trust.

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each touch belongs to each new song
we'll dance inside the song

It might be a big misunderstanding.

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Knowledge shouts but wisdom listens. Love me and I'll love you, LW.

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How do you even know she went to him?

It might be a big misunderstanding.

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.. I walked into the bedroom to let her know I was leaving, and both were lying in the bed..

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rip brandibear.  Oct 1996 - June 29 2009

Be careful whom you call a friend.  This should be an extremely sacred club that you allow someone into and don't expect too much out of anyone until they pass the tests.