how the fuck could you do this to me!?!? you ruined my life took control over everything. i always knew that you loved all ur precious boys over me but you didnt have to treat me as though you didnt love me. im hurting and you dont even take notice. im in pain and all i want is some love. do you give it to me?? no, i get nothing. you say you love me but you dont show it. all i wanted was for you to love me like i am. i make good grades for you. i try my best at everything. i listen to what you tell me. but not anymore. i tried to be everything you wanted but it was never enough for you was it. you want me to fucking bleed for you. i can do that. i can give you all my blood if that will make you fucking happy. no more will i be the precious little girl you always wanted. im done and through. i hope you are happy. you have ruined my life. and tonight i change. i will the the rebel daughter. i will drink and do drugs and fuck every guy i can. is that what you want for a daughter..or would that just give you a fucking excuse to deny me completely. thats what you secretly want isnt it. you must secretly wish i was never born. i bet you wish that i would have died instead of anthony. i bet you want him back. if you could trade me for him would you. is that what you really want. im sorry that im not him. im sorry that he died and not me. dad, do you blame me for mothers death. i already blame myself anyways so whats the difference if you blame me too. i hope you know that my stepmom is a bitch to me whenever you are away. is that what you wanted for me. is this punishment for the deaths that i caused. deaths i couldnt stop cause i was just a fucking baby. i have to live with this shit. and nobody does anything to fucking help me. i just hope that you are all just fucking happy with you lives..and know that i never will be.
Love always, your precious little girl
2:37 am on Nov. 23, 2008
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Don't do that. its stupid. your letting them ruin your life dont sink that low girl!
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I'm sorry
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I didn't mean to, daughter.
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Don't ruin your life for the sake of others. If your parents are looking down on you in any way, don't give them the right to justify their actions. If you are getting good grades, keep getting them. If you are doing all you can to the best of your abilities, keep up the good work! Don't throw your life down the drain because of the negative feelings you get from others. Eventually, there will be a time in your life when you are not under their control, when you are out paving your own path. Don't throw away what you have started for spite when it will come back to haunt you later down the road. Keep being all that you can be, don't let them have any form of justification for their criticism or unfair treatment. The best revenge is to live a good life.
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