Now that I am so depressed, my view point is probably warped.

However, and I say this as rationally as I can, my situation will not change soon. In fact, it will just get worse.

Sure, I could see a doctor, but I will continue to be depressed until my situation changes. I am trying to change it, but I am failing.

But yes, I am severely depressed. I really would rather die tonight in my sleep, than wakeup and face tomorrow.