Ok so on Monday I tried to OD (i know stupid way because it really never works but anyways). I tried to OD at school (another stupid Idea) But it didn't work hence why I am typing this....but to day the counselors at school called me down to talk to me about me being suicidal. Well I didn't know what to say because if my mom finds out I did this again or told anyone how I was feeling she will say I am doing it all for attention and that i just really don't need help.
Background with me and my mom...... I started cutting in the 4th grade and I told my mom in the 9th grade because it was getting worse and I knew I needed help. Well she didn't do anything till someone came up to her and told her they were worried about me. That is always how it is she doesn't do anything till someone else is worried and she knows that maybe she should start caring.
Well I don't want her to do her fake caring (IE. she pretends to care around everyone but at home she freaks out and says that I am doing it all for attention and that I am a spoiled brat) and I don't know what to do...the counselors said that i have to go talk to the liaison officer and if she thinks I need help they are going to take me away to a behavior management place to get help. To me that is all fine and good but I am worried about my mom's reaction I mean what if I get out of there and she gets worse with me and doesn't take time to care until someone tells her to.
This was really to vent but if you have any ideas please let me know.
9:17 am on Nov. 20, 2008
Anonymous
You think it's good to get removed from your home for this and be put in the system? Oh god you are in for an eye opener. You think no one cares now, wait. You will see it in there. I was there two years for the crap like you.
Even if you want to go back home, which you will, you can't because they won't let you back.
9:21 am on Nov. 20, 2008
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I don't to go into a system just want to get some help and I why wouldn't I get to get home.
9:28 am on Nov. 20, 2008
lingerie gurl
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They take you out of your home in order to "help" you.
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but i get help and then I can go home right???
9:35 am on Nov. 20, 2008
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Quote: from Anonymous at 9:35 am on Nov. 20, 2008
but i get help and then I can go home right???
Sometimes.
9:36 am on Nov. 20, 2008
lingerie gurl
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Quote: from Anonymous at 9:35 am on Nov. 20, 2008
but i get help and then I can go home right???
Depends if the state thinks your home is okay, your mom takes special parenting classes and such.
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why sometimes??????
9:37 am on Nov. 20, 2008
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It's almost always up to the doctors to determine if you are ready to go home and if you are likely to relapse, they dont want to be responsible if you do relapse so they want to cover their own ass and make damn sure in their minds you'll be fine when you leave. They take their sweet ass time sometimes.
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i see THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR HELP
8:08 am on Nov. 21, 2008
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why did you start cutting at 4th grade and did you see anyone do it before
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no i just found this sharp piece of plastic one day and i was playing with it and i cut my finger by accident and I liked how it felt and the blood and I have done it ever since
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but i get help and then I can go home right???
