I think there's something wrong with me, mentally. I constantly feel really really bad, I'd say it was depression but I don't want to go to the extreme and diagnose myself. I just feel like the world would be better off without me, like if I died, no one would care, that people would be happier that I'm finally gone.

Also, I don't know whether I have some sort of paranoia or something, but I am convinced everyone hates me. I know this is a stupid and OTT thing to say, but I really believe it. I believe my best friend hates me, and my family, my own mother. I was at a party on Saturday, and a friend invited his friend whom I didn't know. The person I didn't know was in the room for 2 minutes, we hadn't even spoke, and I had convinced myself that he hated me, and that no one at the party wanted me there.

I'm sick and tired of feeling this way. I would go to a GP, but I'm scared they're not going to believe me, or put me in a mental home or something. Plus, I don't want my parents to find out how I feel.

There's a history of mental illness in my family, which is making me worry more.

Find an adult you trust

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ouch it wont reach my mouth
if i could do it myself i'd probably never leave the house
but i can't so here's where you come in
givin' it different strokes just like Arnold Drummond

Therapy is great when you're willing to cooperate and try to find what's wrong. No sensible GP should dismiss you - tell them what's happening, and ask if they can refer you to a therapist.

If you need, I dunno, cheap ones, you should probably let the GP know that too... here, the government funds some stuff, I don't know what the deal is where you are though. Ask the GP what your options are.

Take care, and know that it's worth doing something about!