Ok... where to start?
So lately, I guess I've had sort of a revelation to life. Everything is pointless. Or at least everything is boring and therefore doesn't have a point. I was watching TV the other day and said to myself, "WOW! There is nothing worth while on TV" (except the office). So I stopped watching. The next day I decided to rededicate myself to God and try to live for His glory. I was fine with that and started writing songs and finding SOME joy in things. Now, after I think about it further, nothing is worth the time. I started thinking about the future and thought how boring it was going to be. I've been waiting FOREVER to go to college, but now I'm having doubts about this time that's supposed to be fun and where you're supposed to party the hell out of yourself. What is the point? I've been trying to decide if life is really THAT boring and pointless or if I'm depressed for some reason. I have loads of friends at school and on my club soccer team and back in the city where I moved from. I love them all. However, lately, I've felt sort of anti-social. I'm not sure if that's because I'm extremely tired of school and my extracurricular activities or because I just am anti-social. Nonetheless, I'm beginning to think I need to hang out with my friends more OUTSIDE of school, but it's hard since the closest person lives 20 minutes away. Eventually, though, aren't my thoughts going to change towards this and this too will become boring and useless??? I've also ruled in the possibility that I recently started talking to my friend again after a sort of 'dead period' where we didn't talk for a few months. I liked her the second I met her and I continued liking her for the next 2 years, but keeping my options open. Then, I had to move, but I still had these feelings for her. Which is when the 'dead period' began. So I called her up and told her and she has a boyfriend now. but I asked her some questions and she said that when I first started liking her, she liked me also. I guess I was just too shy to ask her out, I dunno. She ended up giving up on me. I still miss her even though I know things could never work out (long distance relationship, boyfriend, etc.) and I've told her that. Or maybe, going slightly off of that path, is this feeling just stress related? I've had tons of homework lately and have been extremely tired. Any help? Please don't tell me to go to a professional either. I'll decide that for myself. Which I'm actually considering if I still feel this way in the future weeks and months to come. The one I'm thinking the most is worthy of causing this feeling is the friends thing, though.
Thanks!

With college... I don't go partying every friggin weekend.  Yes,  I go sometimes, but usually i just hang with friends by going downtown and doing other stuff. Those who usually prty like hell, look like hell after a while, then their grades go to hell, and then go home to their parents, who would be mad as hell.  

With the whole antisocial thing... its normal being around a lot of different personalities after a while can be very tiring. and you just want your space and not do anything.

If you are feeling depressed and bad about not being around others, do social activities, but limit it so that way you will be hanging with people, but you aren't overdueing it.  

Trust me I am going through the same thing myself... it has been very hard.  

one more point.. not everything is pointless

College- I understand what you're saying. I get straight A's and I don't plan on ruining that or partying every day, but the atmosphere gives you sense of freedom... from what I hear and see and is depicted anyway.

Social thing- sounds good, I guess.

And tell me one thing that isn't pointless. In the end, it all fades to dust. Legacy may last a while on earth, but what happens when the earth is gone?

Read Ecclesiastes and meet a man who found everything to be pointless, yet still left an incredible legacy. I was shocked that such a well-known man of God who had so much wisdom had concluded the same thing as me - and it was oddly comforting.

I think God is only too eager to bring you through this despondency. Talk to him.