I don't know if I've ever had a strict ED, and I'm troubled by the idea of wannarexia. My weight has always been a part of other neurosis. So right now, I'm home from college for christmas, and this always puts me on a fast track to weight loss. I haven't been on a scale in 11 months, and now I'll be on it every day. I haven't counted calories in months, but I know that I ate

60 (bacon)
140 (eggs)
150 (ramen)
30 (bell pepper)
50 (sugar and milk in coffee)
100 (two bites of chocolate and a handful of nuts)
100 (bread)
200 (cheese)
60 (tomato soup)

total: 790
but of course, I'll add 150 extra just in case there was butter on anything etc.

so let's say 850

then I walked around in the snow for 3 hours without sitting down approx 350 calories

then burned 253 calories on a bike machine

so that's a net intake of 247

now I need 2232 calories to maintain weight so that's pretty good.

I don't know what it is about being at my parents house that brings this out in me. I can look at myself and see that I'm not too skinny, not too fat. I don't think. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just still young enough to have the deep inkling that vices have sex appeal. I'm an addict to alcohol, cigarettes, coffee. I do harder drugs but am not addicted.

I just need the control I guess. I don't really think it's an ED, it's just this thing I do. Not all the time, but periodically for a few months at a time over the last 6 years. I don't think I'd look bad 30 lbs lighter, and I know I'd feel better. I just want to be in shape, you know?

anyways, right now I'd say I'm thick but built, yes? I don't really want to be skinny per se, but I want the control of regulating my diet. Do you think it would look weird if I dropped 15-20 lbs?

Post edited at 12:50 am on Dec. 19, 2008 by reev

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there's more than 60 calories in bacon

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nope, I checked the package, and it's 80 calories for two slices (it's lowfat bacon). I cut up three slices and made them with four eggs, then split the meal between my father and I.

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Quote: from Natsy at 11:37 am on Dec. 19, 2008

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there's more than 60 calories in bacon

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nope, I checked the package, and it's 80 calories for two slices (it's lowfat bacon). I cut up three slices and made them with four eggs, then split the meal between my father and I.

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did you take into account the oil?

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Quote: from Anonymous at 6:14 pm on Dec. 19, 2008

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Quote: from Natsy at 11:37 am on Dec. 19, 2008

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there's more than 60 calories in bacon

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 nope, I checked the package, and it's 80 calories for two slices (it's lowfat bacon). I cut up three slices and made them with four eggs, then split the meal between my father and I.

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did you take into account the oil?

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I didn't fry them with any oil, besides as you'll note at the end, I added 150 extra calories to my total just in case my calculations were low anywhere.

1230
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350
880

300 baily's
1000-restaurant meal
200-snacks
400-chocolates
1900
-450

1450

WELL it looks like I will be excercizing a lot tonight.

Post edited at 11:57 pm on Dec. 20, 2008 by Anonymous