Now I feel like SHIT. Hugely. A couple months after I moved back in I accidentally set the kitchen on fire. As you could imagine, this caused a big amount of financial stress, and it was something she was in no way prepared for. So that's one thing.

Then, I was admitted into the hospital. It was something that could have been prevented. I wasn't in any bad physical condition, but I stayed in the hospital for about two weeks. Well, it was fine and dandy until they told my mom that my insurance was not activated, and the hospital gave her a $25,000 bill. She can't get out of it.

I have put my mom through so much crap. Not only do I fight with her and not show her any respect, but I've given her 2 huge bills... I've ruined her chance of being free and happier. She has to worry about so much now, and it's my fault. I mean how would you feel if you did this to your mom? I really really feel like shit. I hate myself for making her life miserable. I wish I could take it away or undo it, but I can't.

I need help. I feel so guilty and so horrible. Even if I got a job and gave her all I made, it wouldn't make it better. I don't know how to deal with this. It's a guilt that I can't fucking live with.

Well One Cannot Undo the Past . Its really now how much really you are willing to help her get out of it. Sense it seems like most of the bills is your fault, best you can do is help get her out of it. I would sacrifice much of my time to get her out of what I did wrong personally. And for sure be more aware of your actions and how well you treat your mom. Simply , just dont walk into any more things that would get in her way and drop her deeper in the hole.
I would for sure take some time off to take some stress off her chest - ( possibly cook dinner , clean up the house, "Help pay the Bill " ) Since it seems like its really that bad, Get up and do something when you feel like you have the time to spare than your actual hobbies.
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- rufo  


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