And I was doing really well up until recently. 5 years without cutting, then last night something just set me off.
The amount of stress I had built up inside me was crippling, I don't sleep at night due to car collision related nightmares, school is terrible, and whatever I do nothing ever seems right.
Still the cutting was unjustifiable, I know.

But it felt so good. Like an entire weight was lifted off my shoulders, I was happy after that and had a better attitude toward everything. Until I realized that I had to tell my boyfriend.
He doesn't understand how it felt good, and how it relieved stress. To be honest neither do I.

Does anyone know how this appears to relieve stress and feel physically pleasing?
(Yes stupid decision I wont do it again)

But its bad.
But myself and many other people do it anyway.
You just have to control it.

Post edited at 5:52 pm on Dec. 3, 2008 by ashleyacid

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I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

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>.< thats confusing the fact that you can say that making yourself hurt, can make u feel better? wow...

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It's true for some people. It's not good but it's true. It's to do with endorphins

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I needed to think about last night. So I galloped into a wooded glen,
and after punch-dancing out my rage,
and suffering an extremely long and very painful fall,
I realized what has to be done.