i have to put up with people's childish behaviour 24/7, and things just got even worse today. i think it's fair to say i have little patience when it comes to people, and this girl emma, just refused to understand the simple concept i explained. all i said was that i wondered how rachel would break the news to us about whether we were going to france or not (rachel=french lecturer). then she kept asking when she was going to tell us, and i told her i didn't know. then she asked again, and i said i didn't know and was just wondering about the above. we went to comparative law seminar, and then she said something like: ''you know, i don't think rachel will know by friday''. it's like, i don't care when we find out, i was just wondering how she would break it to us when she does (like, whether it would be one to one, or whether it would be as a class)

also, in comparative law, the 'nice' group kept getting me to try and answer things, and people know how much i hate speaking out in class or anywhere. it was all because i had some notes, but they weren't that good to be honest. it was just annoying, because clearly the nasty girls (who keep picking on class members) were loving every second of it. just watching me wince in pain as the others tried making me speak. then, when i did ask something, they just shot me down. it's like, why do i even bother? when i'm feeling this stressed out by work and everything, i find it pointless getting in to an argument because i'll just feel worse.

laura didn't say anything more about talking to her, so i guess like them, she's giving up fast.

i'm sorry, i just feel so out of control at the minute, and i just want a break but i have to keep on going until we finish for christmas.  

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