As for as long as i can remember i have had no self esteem. I'm not writing this for attention, this is something I battle everyday. I look at myself and pick apart everything- my skin tone, my hair, my body, everything. I think this probably started when I was in middle school. Everyone would call me ugly,etc. Then gradually over time I changed. I got my braces taken off, I got contacts, I started wearing makeup, I started doing my hair, etc. Then my dad died and everything went fucking down the drain.

i am always nervous for no reason. I am always anxious. my hands often are clamy for no reason. I underestimate myself all the time. I feel like i will never be good enough for anything. I'll never suceed, nothing.

I'm 18 years old and i feel like a waste.
I talk to a therapist and she doesn't understand why i have no self esteem.

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Sometimes we have trouble finding the beauty in ourselves, because we always look at what the norm is and assume that it makes us a better person to fit in with the norm. Sometimes we don't fit with the norm and we feel lower than everyone else.

I can't exactly give you the best advice, because I don't know you well. But try and find the good things about yourself and be proud of them. Looks don't matter that much, what really matters is what you are inside. I found that when I had problems like this, I found a reason to motivate myself and I discovered I'm a much better person than I thought I was.

If you want to talk, PM me? Kay? I'll listen.