maybe i AM trying to have disorders.
i don't know, sometimes i wonder if i want things to be wrong with me, for the attention, or just so i can feel different, im not really sure.
but then again, i fit the criteria for so many things, AND ive even been diagnosed with some, but then a part of me is always thinking "hey maybe you have that, go look up the symptoms"
and then they fit. its like i have this huge list of problems, and i dont try and stop the ones that are developing because i sort of WANT problems.

has anyone ever heard of anything like this? or know what it is?