so i told her the truth, im gonna start seeing him again. and i have spent several dates with him. it stinks though because today when i was with him, she called about 3 or 4 times saying things like im gonna pack your shit, move in with him, let him pay for your school, im not gonna give you the 80 bucks i owe you... threatening me! never trying to discuss with me, oh why are you seeing the guy we dont like?

the most pathetic and depressing reason too is that their main is reason is because hes not white (my parents are racist beyond reason) and its annoying.. ive never told my guy about my insano mothers reasoning because its embarrasing and i dont want him worrying about me...

i do have one solution but not a great one. i have a guy friend (been friends for years but i think he secretly has been crushing on me) and hes willing to make me his new roommate, along with another girl in his new apartment which he should be getting in a couple months.

id be sharing a room with him because im a poor college student and cant afford to have my own room...

my guy though, i KNOW would hate the idea of me living in the same room with another guy...(he doesnt have to know that though right? or he has to trust me)

well to get to my point i think moving out is feasible because im going to be a part time student for the next three semesters so i figured i can work more and make the rent (i would pay a fourth of the rent because of the one room sharing)

i dont want to move out but my mom keeps pressuring me and im NOT giving this guy up.. its wierd, its not just about him, its about me and my lifestyle. most of my friends arent white and i love them, if my mom cant accept that then she cant accept me. im nothing like her...

anyways, advice please? it would be greatly appreciated and thanks for reading my message