I live in a family that doesn't really believe in mental conditions, it took my mom 8 years to accept I had ADD alone. I'm afraid if I ask her to let me see a counselor or psychologist, she will laugh at me and tell me I don't have any problems.

I'm afraid the psychologist or counselor, even the ones at school, would just laugh at me and say nothing was wrong, then have to live in that shame.

Every time I've broken down and told someone on here, they've kept telling me that I need professional help, but that's what's been stopping me, what if they tell me nothing is wrong? What if my mom just laughs at me and says no? Where do I end up then?

Plus...I find it hard to believe I have these conditions if I recognize I have them(suicidal tendencies, depression, Aspergers, depersonalization, PTSD, insomnia, schizophrenia, all things I've been told by support leaders and other members here)

I just...I like keeping everything locked inside, in case I let them out and find out they aren't serious or people tell me how insignificant they are. I've hurt myself before, I'm afraid of telling and people telling me that I'm an emo bitch and getting ostracized. I'm afraid of telling people how I've tried to kill myself and label me a freak, or have my mother laugh in my face and tell me how bad her life was and my problems are nothing compared to her.

And I'm scared they will make me confront my ex step-dad who made me feel like this.

Who cares what your family thinks?
You need help. If you don't get it how can things get better?

Post edited at 2:43 pm on Dec. 9, 2008 by audrey820

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i've lost you somewhere in forever
so let's start this all over ♥

This might sound as if I don't see how hard it is, but I'm still going to say it. It's your EX step-dad. It means this is over. It's over. He's not going to come back. All the problems he had given you are in the past. Right now you are going to focus on getting your life back on the track instead of telling people about it and hoping they would help you.
 If you are afraid that psychologists can't help you, then don't go to them. And maybe you might feel detached to them, since they are professionals, not all of them would really, really care about your problems.

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"You are all muggers. You have no life experience." =0
I live in a state of poverty so you should all donate for me.

and yeah. go behind your mom's back if you don't wnat to confront her with this, I mean it's not like it can't be done. go to someone you don't know and won't have to see again if they mess with you're head, there are plenty of organizations, can't name any because, well, we live in two different countries, but yeah.

seriously, and plus, if you have to tell your mom say it's for the add.

and just becaue she went through more doesn't mean that you're not entitled to feel like shit.

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Like any other clumsy girl I fell into the Grand Canyon

but even if you dont have a mental disorder, if you have problems of any sort you could still benefit from it and it's not stupid to be there

like my friend went to counseling when her friend died but she didnt have a mental disorder but she said it helped her a lot