I've probably never had a relationship before because I'm too afraid to show my feelings to a guy. At the end of the last school year, I took a chance, and told this guy that I liked him. I mean, my friend kind of hinted at it first, then  I told him. But either way he knew.

I was so sure that he had feelings for me. Maybe he was just being nice, but I remember one time he was talking to one of his best friends. I saw them walking down the hall, and I was on the other end, and I SWEAR ON MY LIFE, he said something like "There she is" and smiled.
Yeah, I'm just justifying it to myself.

But anyways, I texted him and told him that I was sorry if that was going to make things awkward, and how I didn't know my friend has suggested it, and that I just wanted to clear anything up. And I asked him "WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT ALL THIS?"

He never responded back.

I actually approached him a time or two in school, but I got nervous, and just said I'd talk to him later. So our conversation dropped off a little in school.

Point being, no matter how many excuses I make for him, and blame it on myself, he had plenty of time to admit his feelings, or say something other than "Okay.."

He just didn't like me enough, I guess. That's the cold hard truth. Yet, I keep thinking about it. I need to stop. Because if he had wanted to pursue it, he would have. He had my number.

really,

really,
bad.

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It's just a boy.  Get over it.

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I just said I was getting over it.

It was just a rant.