Today, while I was eating dinner, I quickly ate it while talking to my mom in attempt to distract my mind, but all she wants to talk about is food. By the time I was finished, I felt like I was going to throw up. Now, all I had was a bowl of soup and a glass of milk. Not some giant ass meal, just something small, yet healthy and filling. I became very nervous and started shaking(I used to get panic attacks, sometimes I get mild forms of them where I start shaking and stuff, but nothing like what I used to experience). My throat tighten and dryed up. It is still hard to breathe hours later. This is NOT an allergic reaction as it happens everytime I eat, no matter what I eat.

Eating around others is more difficult for me. For some reason, I get uneasy around everyone when I'm eating, but I'm perfectly calm if food isn't in the picture. I also eat more when I'm alone listening to music or watching a movie/tv.

I tend to have many small meals/snacks throughout the day because I simply cannot eat a large amount at one time.

Would anyone consider that an eating disorder? I can try to go more in-depth if needed, but I feel as though I have covered it pretty clearly.

If you consider it an eating disorder, I would appreciate any ideas/tips to help me improve my situation. Not cure, just improve. I don't expect to ever be completely ridden of this situation. No medicines though, medicine makes me fucking nervous as well.

seems fine.

Do you think you are fat?

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=)Stephanie

To the poster who asked if I thought I was fat, no, I do not think I'm fat. I'm pretty lean. 130 pounds at 5'9".