I've been dating my boyfriend for two years and I absolutely know I've never cheated on him. In the beginning of our relationship some guy on my bus took out his dick and tried to get me to touch it but I remember pulling my hand away. Now I'm starting to rethink that day in my head...what if I didnt pull my hand away...what if I touched it. It was so long ago that its fuzzy so I dont remember the details but I know I did not touch it. But because I have these paranoia issues I'm now not confident that I pulled my hand away. Now because I feel odd my boyfriend thinks I'm not sure that I havent cheated on him and I dont know how to deal with this.

This paranoid feeling is going to hurt my relationship and I dont know what to do. I dont want to feel like I've cheated on my boyfriend when I know I havent.

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" I don't mean to sound bitter, cold, or cruel,
but I am, so that's how it comes out. " - Bill Hicks