But then new years i went out and got absolutely pissed and ended up meeting (snogging) an ex of mine... who was really good friends with jim before i broke up with him for jim... I didn't cheat on jim, i had broken up with him... But then later on that night after new years i txt jim telling him what i had done... and he said the only thing he could do was break up with me.... but then i had to tell him that i had already broken up with him the day before... an after i had broken up with him i had told him that ''I will tell u why when we got back to school'' didnt mean that i was after getting back with him...

So then he got really annoyed and upset because he thought i had cheated on him and then realised he had been dumped and then i had gone off with a good friend of his... He wouldnt text or talk to me for a good few days now... not even today in school when i went up to him and begged him to please talk to me he wouldnt say a word.... But the other nite he did text back for a bit and he told me now that he hated me, he still loved me but i had broken his heart....

Usually before with guys i don't really feel bad at all when i hurt them or ''break their hearts'' but this time its different and i dont know what to do.... I really care about him so much and for once i actually regret doing what i did... I just dont know what i should do...

If i should just sit him down and really explain everything to him... and tell him how sorry i am.. and how i would never of actually cheated on him.. or just leave him alone... But i really don't want to leave him be, even in hurting him iv really hurt myself so much more that its weird.... I really wish i had never broken up with him in the first place...

Any advice??

you have to really think about whether or not you truely want him

be happy with your life

don't force yourself to be with someone who you will never wake up excited for

make your love worth it

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the sun will set for you