The summer all I was doing was talking to him online just how friends usually do but time went on when feeling grown between us and we took things one step more.We went out .He took me to the movie paid for the tickets and soada .The day we spent together was fun even though we walk around all day .

I was happy because I felt that someone cares alot for me .That whole summer was good .First kiss and meeting each other family .We talk ,kissed alot and hang out with each other but sometime I felt like there was something missing .

On the time he meant my aunt uncle down east in shore I broke up with him .That was a big mistake .He know that something was wrong when I wasn't myself .What made me upset that he didn't say much about it all he said was ok but he should of said more then he did .

I couldn't tell him the real reason why I broke up with him .I wa scared because I didn't think someone could make me that happy and how I thought he might break my heart like the ways guys have in the past but I should of known he could of help me throght that .

After that night he talk to me but things got weired after time when on .I missed him after a while when I relize what I gave up .I was going to get him back but I wanted to do it in person he never came over go busy all the time and time knew it school started again .

We talk in school but I thought maybe my feeling will disappear but it didn't and time went on again he started to go distance from me which really hurt .He told me he will always be friends with his ex's but it felt like our friendship disappear .All he was doing was starting to like other girls that was not me and he wouldent talk to me for weeks .

Time went on when he was with someone else .I cry ed for weeked and month .It was hard to see him and he had a right to move on to what I did to him .I know I hurt him I know I hurt him and I wish I didn't make that one mistake that I did over the summer .I would still be happy but he would to .

I didn't want to look at him or even talk to him but that was not a promble since he was not talking to me because what Ive done to him and someone new in his life wa more important to him .

I try to talk to him online but I spilled my feeling and he said he didn't want to med up his relationship with her .I repect that but then things went down hill after that for them.When things calmed down he went ot with someone else but I got mad because he know I had feeling for him and he didn't come back to me .I thought he he really did have feeling for me he would of came back to me .

I beging to talk to him online and ask to hang out we did he came over and I told him I still had feeling for him and he told me he really want to but he in the middel of two of his ex fighting over him and didn't want them to come bac to me and fight me .I didn't belive that but I let it be .I gave him a bok of eveything of me and him thought and memoryies

That night his arm was around me on the cach and so on .He talk to me for a while we took picture but that night when he got droped off home I kiss him and he did to .Next day he wrote saying he dont feel the same and so on but I ask why he said he dont know .

I cry again for a while again but next day I talk to him saying why he did that he said he hasent seen me that happy for so long .He was messing with my feeling .I was not  that happy untile he put his arm around me .He didn't have to put his arm arund me .If you dont have feeling for someone dont do something like that .

I got my nucleus back from him and I gave his bracel back to him but it didn't hurt giviing back to him because I didn't fit me .

Now he dont even talk to me and he think he knows all the fact but the thing he dont .He dont know what really happent over the summer and he wont let me explain if I did explain everything it wouldent change anything .

try to get over him, in time you will be able to heal.

and what do you mean you got your nucleus back?...

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i want to have my cake and eat it too :l

And its hard to read with all the gramitical errors. :/

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life is a rolercoaster, up down and ALL around. :D