I've been smoking marijuana for about 2 years. Recently (about a few months, half a year) I've started to feel very helpless and upset. I've been very paranoid about death, for example if I had a headache I'd think I had a brain tumor. I keep making up things that are wrong with me because I believe marijuana is some how killing me (even though I know nobody has ever died from it). I also feel like an awful person because I feel as if I've let my family down. I'm doing what most teenagers are doing my age and I feel awful for it. My parents also drank when they were my age which is almost equally as bad as smoking weed. I don't smoke cigarettes and I'm not going into harder drugs. Smoking just relaxes me.

I also hate touching my things because I believe I have marijuana particles on me. If I sit in my boyfriends car (which we smoke marijuana in) I don't like coming in my house and touching things or using my blankets. I just feel helpless and like I'm a terrible person for acting in a manner of that of most teenagers (not offending people who don't smoke).

I quit for about a month and had a fuzzy feeling like I was walking around in a fog. I feel like that usually because I do smoke often but it seemed to get worse.

How can I feel better about myself? Why do I feel so helpless and have all these weird feelings? Why am I so worried of death when half of the world smokes and doesn't feel this way? I just feel like the whole world is collapsing on me. I just want to be able to smoke or not smoke without feeling awful...