like i want to get better and recover.
but then i want the control over something...

and im not sure what to do
im actually terrified at the thought of my parents knowing.
so they are no option to tell.
Doctor = no way i cant see one on my own.!
family/friends = no!
simply no.
i feel like  i have no one to tell
ive been on B-EAT and they told me recovery hardly happens with out some proffesional help.

I Know from the past i could eat normal again... thing being i feel mega guilty afterwards and i still think the same.

but i dunno what to do i just need some overall advice please???

Thanks xx

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go talk to a guidance counselor at school it can be helpful...start from there

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No i cant.

we dont have them.

At least you now admit you have something going on, but now you need to actually say it out loud and in "public"

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You'll never get to heaven if you are scared of getting high.

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wait...i'm confused. what eating disorder do you think you have exactly?

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anorexia/bulimia i guess

i think notes are easier than face-to-face personally.  ex: i told my mom that I am bisexual through notes. It worked perfectly and she was really cool about it. after the first awkward part we were able to talk normally about it. i think it will be the same with you and your parents.