My mother hasn't been a mother to me in the 15 years I have been on this Earth. It gives me every reason to resent her but, I don't anymore. Anytime she comes to my house, my niece runs to her and yells "grandma!"and when she does I get the worse thoughts. I know exactly what to say that would make her leave and never come back. I know exactly what to do that would make her regret ever thinking that I was too naive to understand. It sucks to say I'm jealous but I am. She's a great grandmother but when it comes to being a mother to any of her five kids, she just wasn't ready. I hate her for that. So, lately when she comes around I dont' speak unless she initiates a conversation and she thinks I'm being rude. Now, I'm afraid that she'll give up on me because she thinks that I gave up on her. I don't know how to accept her. 
Post edited at 4:59 pm on Nov. 30, 2008 by Luvme4eva
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