But more likely your depression is causing you to feel guilty about the things that happened in your past. I know when I was severely depressed I felt like I was a horrible person for accidently calling my uncle Rob instead of Redge. It's a part of depression, it is possible you are experiencing anxiety problems though. You should talk to your Psychiatrist or councelor.

That you can actually recognise the possible signs of early depression is good: first steps on the road to recovery.
Depression can be caused by a variety of factors, such as a family bereavement or a genetic reason. Assigning blame wont do much to help the recovery unless there is something you can do about it: dont beat yourself up about the past.

The best move for you to make next is to see a counsellor and get their advice and support to get you through the depression. It can be hard at first, but it gets easier, and it will help you.


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dont wonder why im not smiling, wonder why you are.